The truth is I think something may be wrong with me? Or that I’m just crazy really never could get to the bottom of that. I had a very nice life it was perfect, everyone called me pretty or beautiful but I didn’t see it. I always felt ugly until one day. I was outside and had a little accident and hit my head on the corner of our patio table. I only remember being dizzy and felt something warm running down the side of my face. When I got inside and saw in the mirror the gash and blood, it was the first time I ever felt beautiful. The pain itself felt orgasmic to me instead of getting help I sat down and started to play with myself. Before I knew it my dark fall into the evil and taboo began. I wasn’t sure how to really explore it, so I would cause myself pain just to get off, everyone just thought I was accident-prone. The truth was I wanted to be hurt, craving to bleed. After a while just playing by myself wasn’t enough, I want to find someone else who will torment and torture me. Give me the joy that my body so desperately wants, even if that means snuffing me out of existence. No turning back now it’s a kink I can’t ignore, I need it too much. Help me create a dark play-land where only the extreme taboo and horrible ends are allowed. Make my ultimate fantasies and all their horror come to light!