Journal entry
December 11, 2014
I am so tired of being tortured and raped what have I done to deserve this blasphemy. I pray to god each night does he not hear my prayers. Lord hear my prayer. Countless promises go unanswered what must I do? The other night I had a dream that I had a savior. Could it be that I’ve been praying to the wrong god. Curse his name and for what he stands for. One who says we have chosen our own fate. Jesus who would chose this kind of life. He claims throughout this book he is here to save me, well where you are. Do you not love me, have I not honored you?
I bow my head in shame deliver me from this life I call upon the devil. I will sell my soul just to be released from anguish. Pray, make me your bride deliver me from this hell I am in. Curse my soul and bring me deliverance and make me whole. Bring me to your palace I am eternal grateful I will be your honored servant. As you take me for your bride I pray to the gods in hell I am your whore.